Okay - Lyrics

Feel like a bird tied to a tether–not quite how it’s meant to be. I’m looking around at all these feathers That I don’t even need. Tonight I think that something happened When I decided to finally try. Maybe to you it looked like jumping But I think I touched the sky. Cause I almost flew today. I almost flew today. It’s not much of a tale to tell Cause after all I mostly fell But I almost flew today. Sometimes life is rough on living. Seems like I’m barely getting by. This hard ground is not forgiving But someday I will learn to fly. Don’t take away this harness yet And I think I might still need this net And let me know if you’ve got some hope to spare… Hope to spare…

Jon Turner died last week. I think had some cancer in his head. I’m kinda sad that I never got to know him Just based on what everybody said you know that Jon Turner was a family man–He and his wife had a daughter and a son. Even though he finished pretty well I got the feeling he wasn’t quite done. Today won’t come again. And this moment’s your currency to spend. Some investments pay dividends After you cash your chips in. Jon Turner had a lot of friends they said he took less than he would give. I don’t think he was afraid to be known. Sometimes when someone dies we learn how to live. Now I don’t always get it right–I don’t always have what it takes So do me a favor when I die Could you kindly forget my mistakes?

Doctor says there’s nothing wrong with my head At least as far as he can tell. But late at night when I’m lying in my bed Sometimes I don’t hear so well. Now certain circumstances tend to bring Clarity like a lightning rod. I admit that it’s a spiritual thing Talking bout the voice of God. The only time it’s loud and clear Is when my eyes are filled with tears Cause pain is a megaphone. The summer always seems so surreal (The memories cut like a knife) When I was caught asleep at the wheel And on the shoulder of my life. We drift to sleep when things get dull Then we need a wake up call And pain is a megaphone. Life can be a heavy load That we carry down this winding road. But there’s one thing that I’ve figured out Sometimes God whispers and sometimes He shouts And pain is His megaphone. Now I’m not saying that there’s always something there. I don’t claim to know His plans. So when the fiery trials singe your hair You don’t need to understand. But if you’re ever slow to hear You may want to plug your ears Cause pain is a megaphone.

I pretend I don’t need you As I barely survive another hard fall. There is nothing but nothing I can say. And isn’t all this slow motion Somehow better than no motion at all. But my lopsided soul keeps my logic at bay I think I heard the sound Of my heart breaking just now. So I just need a dose of equilibrium. I make up my excuses And fall off the face of all my resolve. There is nothing but nothing left today. I imagine a moment While the effort and the load and the fulcrum evolve But maybe all I really need is a touch of your grace. Falling asleep while I’m watching guard. Dreaming is easy but waking is hard. So I just need a dose….

Maybe it’s something like perspective Making it seem like nothing’s right. Maybe there’s a larger story But all I feel is pain tonight. Maybe it’s my shortsighted vision That made me feel alone today. What if there’s a purpose to this bitter pill? Would that make it all okay? All I know Is all I can see And all I need is moving from me so Help me feel Something real Cause I still don’t have your perspective. Maybe it’s time to make a change. Maybe I need some time away. If only I could see from where you are Would that make it all okay? Tell me is it all okay?

When the sun came up today My world was going down. If it’s anything but okay That’s where I’m hanging out. Now there’s a chill like winter’s near But summer’s being rehearsed. And your perspective disappears When you’re living in reverse. Cause it feels like moving backwards When life goes by so fast. But you get to live it all over again When you back track the past. I think every prayer I spoke Came right back down to me. Makes me think that something’s broke In this Cosmic time machine. Lord help me move from here Or help me wait until Cause if I’m not moving backwards I think I’m standing still.

Moving on Friday to a brand new place. I’m counting on Sunday to find some grace. It’s dark and it’s drafty, this place that I’ve been in. I need somewhere with windows to let the sunshine in. This cobwebs in my heart, it hurts so bad to clear them away that I don’t know where to start so I think I’ll wait till Friday to move on. It’s second-guess Thursday and I’m wonderin’ if I’m right. Don’t know if I’m ready for tomorrow or tonight. Maybe it takes more than I’ve got to give. Maybe I just need a new place to live. Maybe on Friday, I’ll move on instead, but I don’t want to be over you just yet. Moving on…

I keep thinking That there’s something I should say. I keep hoping That there’s some prayer I could pray That would make you want to unpack your bags And come back home to stay. Maybe tomorrow But not today. I keep waiting For a distraction for this pain. I keep looking For the magic pill that I could take That would make these memories of you And me just go away. Maybe tomorrow But not today. Something keeps telling me That this is not the end But I don’t know how long I can Hold on to where we’ve been. I keep trying To justify my faith. I keep wondering If I’m gonna wake up some day Cause sometimes I think it might be time To let you walk away. Maybe tomorrow But not today.

It feels just like I’m waiting in line Behind the guy who likes to talk To the cashier. I wish he’d leave; I wish he’d go home go home or be somewhere else. There’s something in the way It’s a pain just like the day the train drops the gate And I’m late. I wanna leave; I wanna go home go home or be somewhere else. But I’m standing still And I’m waiting on you Cause I cannot move Until you do. It’s like a traffic bottleneck when someone wrecks, My car gets stuck–It’s just my luck–What the heck? I wanna leave; I wanna go home go home or be somewhere else.

Don’t look at me that way, It makes my heart skip a beat. I don’t know quite what to say Cause some dreams you can’t repeat. For a second I thought I’d tell But you wouldn’t understand. Even though you know me well I’m slipping through your hands. My heart is held together by all this skin. What used to feel like leather is wearing thin. Cause I know how it feels to be breakable on the inside When the outside looks so right. I know how it feels too be breakable on the inside But don’t give up the fight. Sometimes it makes me cry And sometimes it makes me laugh. Cause everything I think I need Is everything that I can’t have.

I didn’t think I’d see you here today. Sorry if I don’t quite know what to say. All those nights I reached for you and you seemed so far away So I didn’t think I’d see you here today. I didn’t plan on company today. You showed up without warning anyway. Things are so disordered and you’re saying that’s okay But I didn’t think I’d see you here today. You came crashing down Through all my doubts Like a long lost jug of wine I forgot about. I started to think perhaps you went away. Maybe you had some pressing thing to do or say. But here you are like the hero in the third act of some play And I didn’t think I’d see you here today.